not your typical annihilatrix (furiosity) wrote,
not your typical annihilatrix
furiosity

жалеем слонов с далёкой Суматры и ближних пинаем ногой

0001 - It's ridiculous how backed up my writing/editing slate is, considering I have no deadlines. Could the lack of deadlines be causing it all to pile up? XD Maybe I should just start posting a bunch of WsiP -- "I said I would post it on X day" seems to work as well as any deadline in getting me to stop being lazy. But that usually ends up being even more stressful than fests. :< Plus, I've been kinda bored with writing lately; it's way too easy, which means I've fallen into a rut. I need to do something challenging for fun, like write from the point of view of a surveillance camera (i.e. pure visual input, no thought process), or write a story using only verbs beginning with dis-, or describe things at length without using any adjectives or adverbs. I've wanted to try my hand at a properly difficult lipogram longer than 100 words for ages, too. Maybe I'll do that today. (Don't worry, my ~writing exercises~ do not get posted on the internet. XD) I've been on a sort of minimalist kick for the past... 8 months or so, not counting Interregnum and Boys Don't Cry. There was a time when I churned out mostly pointless H/D by the bucketload, and I could easily continue doing so now, but in retrospect, most of those fics could have been three times shorter. I sometimes toy with the idea of going back and fixing them, but then I remember that stories are never finished; they're abandoned. Even if you revisit them fifty times. (I didn't think that up -- I read it somewhere, but it's so true.) I need to keep telling myself that, often -- I want to get the edits on Before Peace, Interregnum, and Blue Pill done. Then let them go.

0010 - Exercise: I'm up to 21 minutes today, and I've recovered from last week's bout with the plague, so I'm back up to 20 km/h. It's actually becoming a lot easier, and I think once I hit 30 minutes, I'll start increasing the speed and resistance. I am now certain that I'm sleeping better due to the exercise; a week-long period of improved sleep might've been a fluke, but I'm hard-pressed to say the same about a month. I am smoking less -- not through any conscious effort to cut down, but I just don't crave it as much. My stress-related upper back pain is gone. I can run up the two flights of stairs to my office without getting winded. My balance and posture are improving. And the most interesting thing is ...I get pretty awful period cramps, and I was worried about keeping on with the bike for the first and second day (when the cramps are typically at their worst and I can't do anything without painkillers). But for the first time I can remember in seventeen years (fuck me, that number is depressing...), I had no cramps at all. Like, there were tiny pangs, but the usual "oh, don't mind me; I'm just going to lie down here and die, okay? okay. D:" phase never materialised. This might or might not be related to getting exercise -- I was also fighting off a virus at the time, so maybe it was somehow related to that. Or maybe it was a complete fluke! Who knows. But if it's the exercise, I think I will be one happy motherfucker for the rest of my pre-menopausal days. The pain is the only reason I ever hate being female, and if it goes? omg, I will be so happy. (I do know birth control pills can ease severity of cramps or erase them altogether, but I've never been on the pill and have absolutely no desire to change this. My attitude towards rampant over-medication in North American society is a rant for another day.)

0011 - I now have a fairly solid understanding of how sentences are formed and can break them down, more or less, based on what I've learned of particles. I have also gained an appreciation (though far from an understanding) for the various ways in which the Japanese language makes its verbs do 200% of the work. (I find this kind of sexy. Is that weird? ...don't answer that.) Fluency in reading hiragana/katakana is improving, though I still have to sound a number of them out in my head as I read. I can recognise and point out about 300 core kanji (with about 85% accuracy); working on learning to write them. Slowly. When listening, I occasionally understand full sentences without having to read the subtitles. XD

0100 - Music: Today I discovered that it's been so long since I've bothered to try learning anything two-handed that I have completely forgotten how to read notes on the bass clef. D: D: This was extremely upsetting for me and I'm going to set aside a half hour every day to practice. I was trying to play the Namimori school anthem. *facepalm* I know, I know. Just. I THINK I MAY BE FALLING FOR D18 A LITTLE BIT. I READ A REALLY GOOD FIC THE OTHER DAY AND THEN LAST WEEK'S CHAPTER HAPPENED AND AND AND...

0101 - Seasons: It's spring, and I'm happy. I don't want to hear about equinoxes -- in my world, spring always starts on March 1st. Always has, always will. >.> Spring means time for spring cleaning of all kinds. I'm looking forward to it.
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